August 2013 Wait List Number

The number came quickly this month on the very first day of the month. It came with joy. Last month I cried over the number. Such a big number, 123. I cried for the time I have already spent waiting. Cried for the time yet to wait. I wanted to be grateful for the number but mostly I was just heartbroken. When the number came early this month I was caught off guard. 

Nick told me it had come. I threatened his life and told him NOT to tell me what it was. I don't know why but I needed to read it. I opened my mail and there was my blessing....

107

Nineteen precious gifts from God were referred to anxiously awaiting Mommies and Daddies. Fourteen of those were infants.

More tears.

This time for relief and for joy. She will come home. I will not wait forever.  I will hold her in my arms. I will look into those big brown eyes. She will call me Momma. 

I will cry then for the sheer gift of God's grace. Another month has passed and I praise Him for it. I praise Him for the lessons He is teaching me. Teaching me to find the joy in the hard and to rely on Him. In Him is peace. 

Blessings All,

Amy